Flick Fashions

When it comes to clothing, I teeter on a strange balance of designer clothing, high street mass retailers, vintage and otherwise ebay auctions, and handmade etsy picks. Oh, and of course there is the low of the low in garage saling and secondhand shopping. I also cycle through these phases. This past spring and early summer, I could not get enough of thrift shops and garage sales. I was monumentally poor then. It makes sense. Then, when I got my management job at the pool this summer, I was making some more money and I also scored some more lucrative tutoring jobs. I became a Target, Ross, and Forever 21 clothes hound. I have not shown ebay the love in a long time, but about two years ago in the fall, I simply could not get enough of it. I have noticed how tired of grown of the mass retailers after my binge this summer. I still try to stop in and I find the clothing boring and repetitive. Part of it is the economy (according to National Public Radio) and part of it is my overenthusiasm and subsequent overexposure to all things mass produced. In desperation, I tried ebay, but it just wasn't doing it for me (I did bid on a pair of strappy Christian Louboutin's, but was quickly outbid and unwilling to fork over more cash). Feeling unhopeful and sure that I was about to slump into another anti-shopping haze, I decided to try etsy. I wasn't expecting much. I was mistaken. This is everything that I found and purchased on etsy. I went crazy. What always sucks me in with etsy is that I know that pretty much no one where I live would own what I purchase from there. There is an idealistic entrepreneurial spirit that I love about all of the designers on there.

The Scratches That Made Me

You buy things and you keep them clean. You take care of them. Keep them in a special pocket. Away from keys and coins. Away from other things that should be kept clean and taken care of as well. Then they get scratched. And scratched again. And again. And again. And again. Soon, you don't care about them anymore. You don't keep them in a special pocket. You throw them in the bag with everything else. They've surpassed their form and become nothing but function. People are like that. You meet them and keep them clean. In a special pocket. And then you start to scratch them. Not on purpose. Sometimes you just drop them by accident or forget which pocket they're in. But after the first scratch, it's all downhill from there. You see past their form. They become function. They are a purpose. Only their essence remains.

I Like this Baby

aduh udah lama ya kayanya gue ga cerita disini, abisan mau cerita bingung mau ceritain apa, tadinya gue mau cerita hm ada temen gue waktu itu gue pernah suka tapi yaudahlah skip aja gapenting. yang jelas sekarang ya sekarang, sebenernya sih gue desperated gitu tapi denger kemaren gebetan gue ngomong yang bikin gue seneng akhirnya gue ga desperated lagi deh hihi eya lupa itu tuh ya gue gitudeh lagi deket kan sama cowo tapi gatau deh masih belom jelas gimana jadinya ckck nunggu ajasih gueeeeee (cape sebenernya) ya gue sih suka sama dia ga nilai dia dari luar ye tapi dari sifatnya dia, dia lucu banget deh suka ngelawak asli, jadinya kan gue ga stress gitu ye HAHAHA jangan liat orang dari luarnya deh menurut gue, belom tentu loh orang yang cakep dalemnya juga cakep, kalo dia suka selingkuh gimane (kali aja) mantep yeee kata katanya huehue yaudah deh guys segini aja dulu ya nanti kalo ada perkembangan sama dia baru deh gue cerita lagi oksssss (pede gila)

I Barely Have Time To Study

Hiya, lads! Hows your weekend? Mine's pretty charming, I slept over at my cousins' hotel room, so its pretty much lovely. We went out for food and for some fun, we watched Phobia 2. We got back from the hotel around 1 am. It was total fun, though the guys smoked all the time, but it was good. Very good. I wish we stayed in the hotel much longer, we could go to other places. We didn't do anything much yesterday, only laugh and a movie, oh some of us ate dinner together (the others ate dinner with their mums and their friends). I stayed up all night until dawn yesterday, felt like I was a vampire, I stayed up with Almo (we both couldn't sleep, I tried to, he smoked instead). It was weird to found out that I could sleep at dawn.

Holiday is going to end soon enough, next week is mid test, but I haven't study yet. I'll study things this week, promise.
My maids haven't got back from their homes yet, so I'm doing the dishes, while Mum do the other. Wish they go back soon. But my driver will be here tomorrow, so maybe I could buy some DVDs and go to the dentist tomorrow.

I asked mein bruder earlier today at lunch, to give me present when next year before he get back, he only nodded, my only hope is that he's not the kind of guy who likes to give away promises and false hopes.

So off to bed now. x

Dreaming 'Led Zeppelin'

it's a Rock Legend evermore! gila gila cooldeh sampe sekarang

Robbert Plant

look, what you got now?

pusing pusing sing sing swing swingggggggggggggg a song lalalalalalalala gue bingung sama orang yang ngga pernah mau belajar memaafkan. padahal saling memaafkan itu awal yang bagus buat mengawali semuanya dari awal lagi. easy to make but hard to forgive, ok gue akuin, tapi kalo gitu terus please dong lo masih harus menjalankan hidup lo. ngga memaafkan atau diem aja itu ngga menyelesaikan semua masalah. gue juga bingung sama orang yang ngga mikir sesuatu yang dia perbuat tanpa pikir panjang. perbuatan yang mungkin bisa nyakitin orang banyak dan memperjauh pertemanan seseorang. disini gue bukan ngomongin siapapun, gue cuma melihat balik apa yang gue saksikan selama gue hidup. akhir-akhir ini banyak hal yang gue ngga ngerti dan sebenernya emang ngga mau ngerti. tapi kalo semua itu kita ngga ngerti, gimana kita mau bertahan hidup di dunia yang keras ini ea. manusia juga ngga cukup sabar buat menunggu sesuatu atau menahan emosinya. kenyataan yang paling banyak gue liat ya itu. gue ngomong gini bukan berarti gue paling sempurna, engga kok. gue sama aja kaya semua orang yang gue lihat di sekeliling gue. gue masih aja ngga sabar dan gue juga sering memutuskan sesuatu tanpa berfikir panjang. jadi dengan ngeliat ke sekeliling lo dan lo ngaca sama diri lo sendiri, mungkin bisa lebih membuat lo mengerti kalo hidup ini ngga segampang keliatannya. belajar! dengan belajar dari apa yang lo lihat, lo denger, dan lo rasain selama itu positif itu bisa membuat lo lebih baik menjalani hidup lo. lihat ke dalem diri lo baik-baik, dan tunjukin ke dunia bahwa lo bisa menjadi lebih baik daripada diri lo yang sebelumnya. hahaha sekali lagi "lo" ini bukan ditunjukkan untuk siapapun. gue hanya melihat ke sekitar gue dan ini balik ke diri gue sendiri

Miracle

this day I really hope a miracle occurs. but all is not going. I believe that all hope will happen. but when? I hope all that happens in time as soon as possible. who will take it? I was certainly upset oneself why hope I share the hope that it is very difficult to achieve in.

now we change the subject. tomorrow I have 15 years. I very of age because I have one more increase. but that I was confused I do not want to have a plan on what more I age the more the old days. I have not the purpose of life I find that during the time I search. Rizka come on, surely you can find all of that shortly. dropouts do not have gods certainly have made a lot answer for you, and you live in the street waiting for you a god. I believe, I can skip all kinds of obstacles that I have a destiny. I sure to face strong because god will not give a trial of more than the limit of our capacity. I do not need any. but as long as I live, I need help from other people because I could not live alone in this world. I try to survive the coming and opened the way for the best and I now I have found that people.

he is the person I care about now and I love. he is not a parent or cousin. he is a person who can understand my situation. he was always there beside me when I need him and when I pleased or pain. I want all of them survive long because I pity him up. he is a person who can accept me as is my want to change without people like him want. I believe he can get away in any near me that I feel are right now. he can accept the situation even though I was quite heavy for it and he can be my friend made me to exchange ideas at the head will explode because of too many ideas covered in. according to me, my life is now much easier in the first appeal because it may be I still have the burden of my responsibility is. but I do not get how I can finish all this alone. I need him. people who already believe and I trust I have for several weeks this. he became the place where I pour all the contents of my heart on it and he will not let anyone know about it. I can certainly it will not be easy for a child are men who go adults. social life, but must remain on the run, and I choose him to reassure my heart that are painful.

I do not how I originally believed he could, but he showed in me about my belief that you can get from him. me and he always just have a few thoughts about the same things that we learned together, such as trying to start a debate session ended without end. all of them make me feel comfortable when in the side and is one of the reasons I started how i love him. there is no reason for me to delude myself about the different reasons why I like it. of different terms and from different perspectives. very clearly visible, I really like him and I think the feeling is more than just love. he makes me as if I was in for a lot with him, and I reveal to complete in his life which is not yet complete. I never thought my relationship with them will be lasting as this, and I am very happy about it. but still many things that I fear is behind the dreams that I have a million meanings hidden in it

The Great Of Kambing Jantan The Movie

hey hey, gue pengen bantu raditya promosiin filmnya niiih.. kasih info juga buat kalian kalian dan saya ingin mendapatkan ticket premiernya juga sih wekawekawek


kambing aneh filmnya lucu banget sumpah soalnya gue udah nonton sih. apalagi diramein sm bang Edrick Tjandra yang bego tolol abis di fil. mukanya yg inta digaruk ituloh yg gak nahan banget wkwkwk. film ini akan mengulas betapa pintarnya pelajar Indonesia. pokoknya HARUS nonton, jangan pake mikir dua kali deh buat nonton ini film apa ngga. soalnya lucu banget beneran deh, bayangin kalo diluar negri orang-orang bule ato bangsa lain bisa ngomong pake bahasa Indonesia, ih waw! lucu kan, cuma ada disini looh hehe
sukses terus ya buat bang Dik!

Biologi is Amazing Gilaaaaaa

aduh maaf yaa buat semuanya soalnya gue jarang ngeblog lg maklum rada banyak tugas gitudeh (sok) hahahaha

ah gile jum'at kemaren ulangan biologi 20 soal ESSAY woow essay men essay! gila gak tuh gurunyaaaaaa aduh gatau deh gue gmn nasibnya..

taudeh bahannya sih cuman jamur tapi gileloooooh gatau krn guenya yg goblok sableng ato emang gurunya yg sinting heeeeeemmmmmm pasrahkan saja sm yg mahakuasa ckckck

sempet buat kebetan sih gueee (waduh) tapi tiba tiba gurunya malah duduk dibangku belakang gue ckck gimana gue mo liat.. aduh udah deh kyknya suram banget itu nilai gue mo berapa......

tapi doakan yaa nilai saya bagus AMIN hehehe

Distrated Of You

Gue lagi buat postingan di henfon nih sekarang, abis daripada gakada kerjaan haha. gue mau ceritain temen gue yang aneeeeeeh bgt sifatnya terutama sm cewek, dia cowok loh (yaiyalah). nih org sifatnya aneh banget gitudeh kyk punya dua kepribadian. emang sih kata temen-temen gue kalo org cakep biasanya emang punya dua kepribadian, tapi diakan jelek (kalo menurut gue) hehe. masa ya pas gue lagi suka & deket sm dia, eh dianya baiiiiiiiiikkkkk bangettt kyk org abis ketiban duren. tp beberapa harinya dia berubah jadi org yg aneh banget, jadi biasa aja gitu sm gue. terus suka lebay sm ke pedean banget gitu iiiiiiiihhhh kan aneh banget ckck
emang gitu ya kalo org punya 2 kepribadian? kyk dia gitu ke gue, kadang perhatian kadang juga biasa aja nyebelin malah. tapi, apa emang dia sifatnya gitu ya ke cewek? suka tarik ulurin cewek, alias Playboy Sableng hahahaha
kalo yang ngerasa kenal, coba tebak?

gak penting juga sih blog gue yang ini, tapi drpd gakada postingan baru hehe

wooooouuuuww :D

Sekarang gue mau posting para Doggy yang gayanya ajib ajib wadezig men hahaha (apasih?)

Honey Sweety Doggy Hoggy

Drunk Men!


Wadezig


Ngaso dulu cuy


Cool banget gaksih gueee


Heeeeeeemmmm

HOMEWORK

Yeay Homework dari Egy
1. Nama sekolah kamu?
SMAN 26 Jakarta yang keren ituloh (ngarep haha)
2. Nama ketua kelas kamu?
Kiray yg gahoooool
3. Jabatan kamu dikelas ?
Seksi Kebersihan zzt
4. Guru yg paling killer?
Bu.Tin Bu.Mus (geblek)
5. Nama kepsek kamu?
Hj.Radiyati siapa gitu lupa haha
6. Nama wakepsek kamu?
Bu Kuntarti
7. Pernah jadi ketua kelas?
kagak, gak minat
8. Pelajaran yg paling ga suka ?
FISIKA, gurunya waw (anying) banget sih abisnya
9. Kegiatan rutin kamu di kelas?
sleeping (NO 1 haha ngik), belajar, nyatet, ngobrol, moto moto, makan apa banget deeeh
10. Pernah diskors?
gak doooong
11. Sering dihukum?
pernah sih, gara gara gak ngerjain tugas -___-
12. Sering buat PR di sekolah?
YOI DOOONG PASTI AHHAHAHA
13. Tempat duduk diatur ga?
gara gara moving class (yeeh belagu) jadi kagak deeeeeeeehhhh
14. IPA/IPS/Bahasa?
IPS DOOOONG
15. Suka bolos ga?
pernah, mendingan ngorok dirumah wkwk
16. Sering rame?
Iya dooong XC kan seruuuuuuuuuuuu bangeeeeeeeeet
17. Ada ade kelas yg rese?
kagak punya adek kelas
18. Kalo kakak kelas?
ada yang rese banget banyak malah tapi rahasia doong
19. Boleh bawa hp?
Boleeeeeeeeh laaaaaaahhh
20. Pernah berantem di sekolah?
gak dooong
21. Pelajaran yg paling kamu suka?
BAHASA INDONESIA sm OLAHRAGA dooong
22. Tempat favourite di sekolah?
Kelas XC yang adem ituloch anginnya sepoy sepoy wuih manteeeeeeebbbbh deh (pdhl AC Iblis ajeee)
23. Ada kantin ga?
adaaaaa lah
24. Suka langgar peraturan ga?
wuuuiiih sering hahahaha
25. Baju suka dikeluarin?
engga deh yaa, kecuali baju or yg gaol itu yang warnanya merah putih cinta indonesia wuek wuek
26. Suka nyontek?
ya iyalah, org geblek aja yg gak pernah nyontek ahaha
27. Nama panggilan kamu kalo di sekolah?
Rizka
28. Pesan buat angkatan di bawah kamu?
Selamet udah msk 26, selameeeeeeeeet bangeeeeeeeeet (huuuiiih)
29. Tag?
Yasmin Raras Dinda aja deeeeeeeeeh hehe

I Believe You..... My Superhero

i just learned that i don't like it when ppl copied me. My quotes, my words, my art, my concept.. Stop it. That is sooo low. Yes, i'm a genius, i invented all of those myself, and you are not a genius like you have said. You copied me.
Hey, Boy, my major is law and all of those legal studies... you are consider to have copied someone's work when you didn't pay a dime to the inventor/owner. At least, do mention where did the work comes out if you don't/can't pay a dime. Example; i featured my friend's photo in my blog: i linked the photo to her gallery back. That means... i appreciate her as the owner/maker of the work.
But someone has been RUDE ENOUGH to me, didn't do the shit at all. It makes me mad. It furious me. Why ppl just can't understand? That means, stealing. STEALING, for God's sake! Stealing my intellectual! Stop doing that. Don't just copy paste... have some attitude, OK??? Do ask. Do link back. Do mention. Do say thanks. Whats so wrong with it? Don't everyone learn how to be POLITE?? Fuck retarded bastard.
I try to write something, 3 pages long for the English Club... I still don't have any idea about what to put down on the blank papers. Geez. 7 days left to participate, and I stare at my computer screen. Blank. Blank. Blank. Arghhhh...!!
It is going to rain again. Or at least, it seems so. Jakarta sky is darker than usual, its only 10.30. Stupid Friendster account experience some errors, my used to be 300++ friends shrinked to only 17. WTF? I couldn't read my e-mails too.
As I wait for the rain (I have my sweater on) Muse's Unintended is playing.

Well I've always been questioning myself about the exact meaning of this song. Common ppl would just easily say, well its a love song. But to me, I think it was deeper than just "a love song". I mean, it definetely is, but with deeper and darker meanings. The lyric stated three persons: the singer (the guy, since it is Matthew Bellamy the vocalist who sings it), the first girl, and the second girl. I

don't know. Maybe it was just me. I questioned almost many things. Damnit.
Its been tiring lately. I think I may fell ill sooner or later. I woke up exhausted
today, though I've slept for more than 10 hours. I fell asleep while I spoke on the phone. I lost track of time and dates. I was... busy with my own thoughts. Hey, maybe I can write these shits down for the English Club! Aww... lame, anyways. I begin to be emo whenever my PMS starts. What the hell... am I emo? Ppl says so. Well I don't think so... OK, I used to be one. But... uh, ppl changed.
It is raining now. Not a hard pouring one, but just some drops. Little drops per inch. I wish the sky are getting darker, its better. I wish we still had coffee. I wish we are having a session. None of it matters.
Hmm... 26, next January. But this is my quarter life crises, though I considered to have crisis most of the time. Yes, quarter life crisis. I begin to think about my life seriously. And ppl said I've got plenty of time to think about it, they're damn right. The problem is, I always think about it seriously.

It is raining with the sun shining. I don't like it, this kind of rain.
My life. My dreams. My future.
My quarter life crisis. I hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate hate it.


My friends are going to build a happy family of their own. Getting married, have kids. Tons of it. Apply for a decent job and spend the salary on shopping Malls. The kind of world I still hope to give up. Pack my baggage and runaway to School with few money I have, soon after I get my degree... or move my ass to another town, get a master degree, get a Ph.D then died eating my diplomas while my friends dining at fancy restaurants with their families. I don't know.
Who will ever read this, anyway? I know you don't take me seriously. You laughed. And while you listen, you think I'm crazy. Oh, sure I was. Definetely I am.
Why is it have to rain... with the sun shine?